I feel like I’ve got so many thoughts running rampant in my head. I constantly feel tired and I also feel like time runs out everyday.
I remember hearing as a teenager, older people say that they need more hours in the day to complete everything and then the “help gurus” would say in response – “You have the same amount of hours in a day as you did ten years ago, manage it”.
This does nothing to help sort all the thoughts in my head.
Sometimes it is so noisy in my head that I don’t know what to address first so I procrastinate and distract myself by doing art or journaling (like I am now). Sometimes things are just so stressful to think about that I can’t think of anything else and I stop functioning properly.
Now I understand what the older generation meant when they would say “I wish I was young again”. Life seems to slip by so quickly. Like now, I am freaking out so badly about wasting my life away, travelling to and from work, let alone working.
Let’s work it out - there are 24 hours in a day and 120 hours in a 5 day work week.
Currently I live locally to my work so it only takes me 10 minutes max to get to work, so for argument sake let’s say that I leave for work at 7:45 am and I arrive home at say 5:30pm. That would mean out of a 24 hour day I would spend 9 ¾ hours at work so that means I spend 41% of my day at work. Now if I go to bed at say 10:30am and wake up at say 6:30am that’s 8 hours asleep. So now I’m down to 6 ¼ hours to fit in getting ready for work, cleaning my house, cooking my dinner, playing with my little dog, being a Mom, wife, sister, daughter and friend as well as finding time for study and personal time!
So you can see why I don’t do a hell of a lot at home after work because there is just no time. The funny thing is, I leave everything until the weekend but when it gets here I am so exhausted and tired that I hardly tend to those things anyway and now they are in deficit of my time!
Gosh I’m exhausted just thinking about it all.
